Should I quit trying?

It'll be the 3rd month in the end of this month. I dont know how long would this drag or should I say what Im hoping for most likely won't happen. I dont know.. What would it be like after 6months..half year is not a short time for me..

I still don't understand.. I thought I belong there with you. You killed my future dreams. Self-destructing, so self-destructing..I don't care about that. You activated self-destructive mode. Sorry? I won't take it. Unless if it's sorry let's fix everything together.

I thought I'm the only one you'd treat like that but seems like not so now. You would treat anyone you like the same or even more than what you ever gave me. I thought I'm irreplaceable. How can I drag you back? Everything I did and still doing now is not helping at all. You're the kind that when u fall for someone u'll hard and you can't see anything else..including me no matter how hard Im trying.

Go on and think about her..you're probably doing it now too.."wonder if ure having a good time thre" Why wonder? She's at some place busying and you cant text her?

There's a lot of things that I don't understand or is it that I don't want to understand. I have no idea about that. I hope one day I'll fall sick, a high fever or whatever and forget everything if it's destined that everything will remain like that.

Do you really don't remember? Or is it what we had before mean nothing much to you? You don't feel a thing when you recall all those? just pain only? The past is the past, no point looking back. But no, things dont go like that for me. I want something in the past to be brought into present and future. U crushed my evey hope now. What is it? A revenge you want, say it...do whatever you want, just don't move on.